I have something called ‘hypervigilance’ 1


An article was published in The New York Times titled “Suicidal Tendencies Are Evident Before Deployment, Study Finds”  based on a five year investigation of hundreds of suicides and surveying thousands of active soldiers, starts with this paragraph:

Amid growing alarm at the rate of suicide among members of the military and confusion about possible causes, researchers reported on Monday that most of the Army’s enlisted men and women with suicidal tendencies had them before they enlisted, and that those at highest risk of making an attempt often had a long history of impulsive anger.”

It’s quite disturbing, but not surprisingly the conclusion of a military research. It is not a coincidence that the military is not able to see itself. The researchers totally negate the fact that the military sends off these young kids into often devastating situations & they would like pretend that there is ‘confusion‘ surrounding the military suicides. How could any problems with consciousness arise from the daily practices of the military? Being sent off into a war and having to witness all the atrocities should in the military books be a process any ‘normal’ soldier [human being] should diligently digest as common day affairs.

In stark contrast of this JAMA Psychiatry research I read at the same time a statement of an anonymous US veteran photographed at random by a famous website posted in this Facebook post by Humans of New York.

 

It’s quite disturbing, but not surprisingly the conclusion of a (military) research. It is not a coincidence that the military is not able to see itself. The researchers totally negate the fact that the military sends off these young kids into often devastating situations & they would like pretend that they cannot phantom any problem with consciousness with the daily practices of the military. Being sent off into a war and having to witness all the atrocities on mostly innocent civilians in a war situation should  be something a ‘normal’ human being should diligently digest as a common day affair.

In stark contrast of this JAMA Psychiatry research I read an anonymous statement of a US veteran photographed randomly by a famous website this Facebook Post by Humans of New York.

“It took me getting into a lot of fights before I was diagnosed with PTSD. I have something called ‘hypervigilance.’ I get really nervous around people. Especially people from the Middle East.”
“What were some traumatic things that happened to you?”
“I was in a vehicle when a mortar round exploded in front of us, and we fell into the crater and got trapped. There was a burning oil rig near us, so it was like being in a microwave. And we couldn’t get out. And I also saw a lot of hanky shit. Mostly from our side. Everyone was really revved up from 9/11. We did a lot of bad things. I saw decapitations, and that was our guys doing it.”
“What happened?”
“We were supposed to bring POW’s back to the base. But instead we gave them a cigarette to calm them down, and told them to get on their knees. One of our guys was 240 lbs, and he’d taken this shovel we’d been issued, and he’d sharpened one of the sides until it was like an axe, and he could take off somebody’s head with two hits.”
“How many times did you see that happen?”
“Three.”

Someone wrote this comment under the Facebook post:

 I can imagine this man didn’t want to be photographed, but the juxtaposition of him lighting a cigarette and the cigarettes in his story is haunting and powerful.

For this veteran to get diagnosed with a disorder is not what should happen. In reality this veteran should try to process this abnormal situation from within instead of giving it an external name, like hypervigilance. Clearly this vet is and has been aware of his actions.

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society” – Jiddu Krishnamurti

On any other news channel practices like the one the veteran is describing would normally make headline news. Taking off your military clothes does not wash away the images in your consciousness. It is clear the military would rather work with soldiers with robot-like qualities or robots all together. Because it is humanly not possible to witness and/or perform atrocities and not suffer mental consequences. What is done by the military has no legal consequences, but the unconscious will not let it rest.

That is the thing, it will eat you from within …
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